As Long as You Love Me
She knew she took the boy by surprise with her actions. She wasn’t used to being the bold one but she felt pleased by his reaction. She paused before hovering over his body and pressed her lips firmly against his. His hands roamed freely against her petite body.
“I love you,” she spoke gently against his lips her eyes opening to lock onto his. Her hands traveled to find his.
“I love you.” He repeated the words she adored to hear. A small smile graced her features. Justin reached his hand out to tuck a loose strand of hair behind her ear. When he brought his hand back, it hit against her picture frame on the small counter beside her bed. Glass shattered on the floor as the picture of her and Demi fell out. “Oh fuck.” He said as she quickly got off of him and scrambled to pick up the glass on her floor.
“Shit,” she swore as the shard sliced the tip of her finger. Justin climbed out of her bed and kneeled down beside her to help. She looked over at him as he picked up the pieces carefully and put them on the counter. “So much for that moment.” She joked making him chuckle as he grabbed the last few pieces.
“We’ll have more,” he said as he kissed her cheek making her flush. She stood up, putting the pieces with the others and picking up the picture and putting it on her desk. “Come here.” He grabbed her hand pulling the girl into him as he wrapped his arms around her.
“What the hell was that?” Selena pulled away at the sound of her father voice coming down the hall, her eyes widened in panic as the footsteps got closer. Justin turned his body to the door and then back to Selena with an unreadable expression.
“Get out.” She hissed pushing his arm towards the window which he came through. Her eyes darted back to the door as the knob shook as her dad muttered a few words to himself that weren’t clear to them. “Justin!” she yelled as the boy grabbed his shoes.
“I’m going, I’m going.” He said as he threw his shoes on and jogged over to the window. Selena felt relief wash over her once he got the window open but suddenly the familiar voice was standing directly behind them.
“What is he doing here?”
I pulled up in front of my old high school, looking through the glass window of my car a flood of old memories came back. Digging my teeth into my lower lip, I grabbed the keys from the ignition and slid out of the car and towards the back of the school where the memorial would be held. A nervous and anxious feeling fulfilled me as I continued to walk towards the soft whispers held in garden. That was the garden where we used to sit as a group during lunch and sometimes before and after school. Times were so simple back then, none of us knew what the future would hold and I’d do anything to be back in that moment telling myself what I know now.
“Selena,” I heard a soft voice say, tightening my grip on my clutch I turned on my heel to see Cynthia – Sammy’s mother. She was dressed in a black dress that fell a few inches under her knee and she wore a large black hat too. You could tell that she was beyond tired by the bags under her eyes, the hat put a shadow over her face but they were still visible. “It’s so good to see you.” She smiled a small sad smile before pulling me into a hug.
“It’s good to see you too,” I told her once we pulled away. She looked at me for a few moments and I grew nervous under her stare. “This looks really nice.” I said which it did. There were white flowers everywhere and a few reefs with different sayings on it; it would be something Sammy would like. She smiled again.
“Thank you, sweetheart. I’m glad you could make it,” she nodded and rubbed my arm gently, she dropped her hand back to her side and stared down at her shoes. “She really missed you, you know.” I swallowed hard at her words and tried to fight the tears willing to fall.
“I missed her too,” I said quietly and now my eyes fell to the ground for a moment before picking them up to lock eyes with her. “I still miss her.”
“So do I,” a small tear fell against her cheek and this time I wrapped my arms around her. Her body was much smaller than mine and she felt like she was going to break if I held her too tight. I could tell she was trying not to cry but after a second you could hear her soft sobs as her grip against my shoulder tightened and I didn’t even know I was crying myself but when she pulled away she used her thumb to wipe away my tears. “I better say hello to everyone.” I nodded as she squeezed my hand before walking towards the small gathered crowd.
I stood there towards the back for a while, while I watched a few not so familiar faces and some familiar talk to each other. I wanted to turn around and get back in my car and leave but I couldn’t. I couldn’t do that to Sammy, she wouldn’t have done it to me. I heard another voice say my name and my head snapped in the voices direction.
“Demi?” she walked closer to me, she looked the same other than her hair being blonde now. She was also in a black dress and she was holding a small water bottle in her hand. We stood their awkwardly and I couldn’t help but feel bad, this was my fault. We were once the closest two friends could be and now we’re acting like we barley even knew each other. “I’ve missed you.” I finally confessed and her lips turned upwards.
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“What – what are you doing here?” I asked as I set my daughter down and held onto her hand. Noah looked down at her, I couldn’t really read his face but he seemed to be in awe like he’s never seen a kid before. “Noah?” I said snapping him out of his thoughts.
“Is that her?” he spoke is a hushed tone and acting like she wasn’t right beside me.
“Uh, yeah.” I bent down so that I was in level with her. “Noah, this is my daughter, Payton,” I introduced, “Payton this is mommy’s friend, Noah.”
“It’s nice to meet you, Payton.” His voice friendly as he bent down himself and stuck out his hand which she stared at before stepping behind me and putting her arms around my legs.
“She’s very shy,” I told him, twisting my body to scoop her back into my arms. “What are you doing here?” I repeated.
“Uh, Sammy’s memorial,” he rubbed the back of his neck. His hair was a bit longer but he still kept it short and he pretty much looked the same where as I felt like I looked ten times older then I was but that was probably just because I felt that I was. “I’m guessing that’s why you’re here too.”
“Yep,” I nodded as I walked up to the counter once the lady finished. I turned to him before asking, “Do you want something?”
He shook his head before reaching into his pocket and pulling out his wallet. “Let me.”
“No, its okay, you don’t have to.”
He smiled, the same old Noah smile, “I want to.”
“Or the time you dared me to jump off that ledge when I was eight,” I chuckled at the memory as I scooped up the chocolate ice cream in my spoon. “Why did I even listen to you, I broke my ankle. I’ll never forget that.”
Noah laughed along too as he licked his own ice cream, vanilla with chocolate swirls, the same as Payton who practically had it all over her mouth.
“You had to, it was a dare. You’d be a pussy if you backed down.”
“Language!” I scolded in a loud whisper.
“Oh shit, I’m sorry,” his eyes widened. “Oh shit.” He slapped his hand over his mouth and I couldn’t help but laugh as he shook his head. “I’m sorry.”
“It’s okay.” I continued to laugh softly. “How’s everyone?” I asked even though I’d rather not have.
“The parents are good, they’re thinking about moving next year,” he nodded as finished up the ice cream. “And Justin is good too. He’s real good.”
I pursed my lips and nodded. It was strange to hear his name again coming from Noah, feelings that I pushed back we’re entering my mind just like they were three years ago. I knew he was doing well, he was everywhere, everyone wanted Justin Bieber, it was kind of freaky hearing about him all the time and his music but I tried my best to keep my focus away from him.
“That’s nice.” I commented, pushing my finished bowl to the side as I grabbed a napkin from the tray and wiped Payton’s face.
“Yeah, he’s probably coming down tomorrow if he can get off.”
I snapped my head in his direction. “He’s coming here?”
Please please please leave some feedback! (In this story Justin has another brother the same age as him)
Prologue (more like a chapter but I’m calling it a prologue in case I don’t go through with the story)
Selena breathed in a soft breath as she tried to keep her mind focused on the road instead of the many thoughts running through her head. It’s been three long years since she’s been here. Toronto, Canada a place where she grew up and loved every minute of it until one mistake changed everything.
“Justin, I need to talk to you.” Selena said as she finally found him in the hallway. She stepped to the side of the alloy locker taking a glance at the picture that was taped inside of the duo together. Justin seemingly surprised by the caution in her voice closed his locker to face his girlfriend. “Um, not here.”
He raised his eyebrows at the petite brunette who hugged her books close to her chest. “I can’t really hang out today,” he told her, “I have another meeting with Scooter.” Scooter was Justin’s quote on quote manager, nothing was official yet but the whole school was buzzing about how he’d be the next star. He wasn’t full of himself though which was one of the things Selena adored, she knew he could make it big yet he kept himself grounded and tried not to get his hopes to high just to have them let down.
“Well we can do it tomorrow?” I asked as people began filing out of the school, endless chatter filling her ears and frowned when he shook his head.
“I can’t do it tomorrow either; mom is pulling me to a wedding upstate.” He groaned. “Just tell me now, you’re kind of scaring me.”
She shook her head making herself smile as best as she could. “Oh, it’s nothing; you know what, call me later. I should get going.” She told him and he wasn’t completely convinced he himself had to go. Before she could walk away he grabbed her elbow bringing her back and pressed his lips to hers. “I’ll try to come over tonight and we can…” he left the sentence unfinished but his smirk showed what he was thinking and she knew it too and that’s exactly why she needed to talk to him.
“What’s wrong, Sel?” Noah, Justin’s brother’s voice asked. She looked up from where she was sitting up against the school’s wall, her face buried in her hands and her cheeks showed black streaks from the mascara that washed from her eyes. Noah and Justin were twins but their personality was pretty opposite and so were some of their features. Justin had light hazel eyes as where Noah had piercing green; Justin was loud and athletic where Noah was quiet and took to studying more. In the past most people could barely tell them apart if they just met but Noah decided to shave off most of his hair leaving it as a buzz cut and frankly it looked good to her.
“Nothing,” she responded wiping away any tears that might eventually fall. He sighed as he took a seat beside her and wrapped his arm around her shoulder. She looked over at him, biting her lip so hard she was surprised she didn’t draw blood. “Everything.” She confessed before bringing her hand to slide around his neck and buried her head into the crook of his neck as she continued to cry. He didn’t say anything; he just kept his arm tightly around her as his heart sunk with every soft sob he heard. Selena was the only girl that got him, the only one who didn’t compare him to Justin, the only one who made him laugh, the only one that he knew he was in love with but he couldn’t do anything about that considering she was in love with his brother.
After a few minutes of her letting out the crying she was keeping she pulled back and wiped her cheeks again. “I’m sorry.” She said and Noah shook his head in reply.
“Don’t be sorry,” he told her, “whenever you want, you can tell me.”
She was iffy for a moment before she nodded her head and asked if he wouldn’t say anything once he swore he wouldn’t she confessed to everything she was keeping bottled up. She told him about how a month ago she and Justin slept together for the first time. He hated hearing that but he couldn’t kid himself that they’d never would next have sex so he kept his expression blank as she carried on about how she found out she was pregnant last night. She started crying again and he held her close as he wished she didn’t have to go through with this.
“It’s going to be okay,” he whispered, putting his hand over her head as she cried into his chest. She didn’t believe him but she needed some comfort.
Monday morning Selena walked into school with nerves filling her body as she walked down the hallway. She didn’t want to be paranoid but she noticed a few stares from people she hadn’t even talked to before and a couple whispers she couldn’t make out. She ignored them though as she found Justin by his locker again.
“Hey, baby.” She greeted him and he closed his locker showing his jaw clench. “Is everything okay?”
“No everything is not okay,” he growled in a small tone so nobody but her could hear him. She grew nervous as she opened her mouth to ask him what was wrong when he continued, “I know what you did. I know you cheated on me.”
“What the hell are you talking about, Justin?” she would never do that to someone. He shook his head; pure anger filled his eyes as he swallowed hard.
“Don’t pretend, everyone knows. You fucked my brother,” He scoffed, “and you’re pregnant too right?”
She felt sick all of a sudden, she could have thrown up right then and there. This wasn’t supposed to be how he found out. He wasn’t supposed to believe stupid rumors going around and be angry at her. She shook her head, her mouth loss of words.
“Fuck you, Selena.” He said before walking away and leaving her there. She wanted to chase after him and demand to know where he heard these things from but she felt weak and she wanted to curl up in a ball and cry.
She called, texted, tried talking to him as much as she could for the rest of the week. She even tried getting Noah to talk to him but he was so angry and soon enough she just gave up. She was being sent messages and told that she was a whore every time she got to school. She didn’t want to back down but the harassment continued and after a week prior to both her parents’ decisions she dropped out of school.
They told her that she only needed her family at this time, she knew she disappointed them with the news but she was grateful for the way they handled it, and without them she didn’t know what to do. Brain, her stepdad made sure to keep Selena positive as best as he could. He knew it was going to be tough but in the end it’ll be okay he would say. So when he found work in Jupiter, Florida about three months after the three of them left Toronto and Selena lost contact with everyone with her choice, deleting her social media’s, changing her number, she wanted to start off fresh.
And that’s what she did; she got homeschooled till she gave birth to her beautiful and healthy girl who she named Payton. She struggled being a mother, a student and working at a nearby dance studio but she knew she had to continue on doing the best she could.
It was nineteen years later when she received the news that Sammy, one of Selena’s best friends who she tried to stay in contact with but lost touched after a while passed away and they were holding a memorial for her. It was up to her if she wanted to go or not, a part of her wanted to say goodbyes and pay her respect and another part wanted to forget about that part of her life but she ended up going. She packed her bags said goodbye to her parents and set off.
Selena parked in front of a large ice cream shop where she looked up into the mirror where her two year old was sitting in her car seat, her blonde hair in small pig tails as she glanced back into the shop she smiled to herself.
“Payton, you want some ice cream?” she checked the mirror again to see her daughter smiling and nodding. She slipped out of the car and moved to the back to pull her daughter into her arms. “This used to be mommy’s favorite place.” She told her as she walked inside; making the bell ring once she stepped through. She walked up behind someone with long brown hair as she waited on line.
“Selena?” she heard a voice say from behind, “Selena Gomez?”
She whipped around to see him.
okay so again idk if i’ll continue the story but if you like it please let me know :)
and if you have suggestions for a title that would be great too!