youre adorable i will :)
aw thankyou!! i mean i could make an epilogue? if its wanted :)
omg you are so precious?? i dont really think its anything like danger since that story is bEYOND incredible but i really love you for this messsage :) thankyou!
aw thankyou but i finished ALAYLM bby :)
im soooo sorry its been forever :/// im almost done with stranded
aw thank you so much! i’ll do my best
It Was Forever
I just wanted to say that I’m so appreciative of all the comments/messages/likes I get on this story. I think this is the most “successful” one I’ve written and I love you all for taking your time to read it and/or sending a message.
I’ve been awake for so long I figured that the soft hum from the air conditioning vents was actually the steady beat of my heart. The sun was starting to rise, the small amount of light spilled in between the curtains of my window. Justin’s arm was still fixated around my waist as he slept soundly beside me, under the blanket on the hardwood floor. I pulled myself away from his grip and grabbed the sweater that was ripped away from my body hours ago. Pulling the fabric over my head, I moved towards my kitchen.
“Shit.” I gasped as I stepped over the shattered glass I forgotten about. I reached the dining table and pressed my palms onto the cold surface. My mind was racing as the moments of last night played again. What was I supposed to do now? I brought my fingernail to the tip of my mouth. I distracted myself from my thoughts with cleaning up my living room. Throwing out the open pizza boxes and empty beer bottles, folding the blankets and doing the dishes but by the time I was done barley a half hour had passed. I let my hands rest against the sink and my eyes closed for a brief second.
“Hey,” a soft voice said and I flinched in surprise. I turned to see Justin, leaning awkwardly against the door sill, his chest bare but his jeans were back on.
“Hi.” I replied. He took a step forward and I swallowed. It was so easy last night but now thinking about it, I felt so stupid. I dropped my gaze down and suddenly took interest in my nails.
“You okay?” he asked. His hip rested against mine and I turned my head upwards seeing his stare on me, I drew in a breath and shook my head. He wasn’t hesitant on taking his arm and wrapping it around me and I let my cheek rest against his warm chest. His hand latched onto my lower back and his chin settled on the top of my head.
“I just don’t know what to do,” I whispered and his hand started to move in circles on my back. “It’s not only Travis, it’s my parents, the rest of my family, my friends, fans, the whole world.” Saying those words out loud made it all the more real and I could feel my eyes sting.
“I promise it’s going to be okay,” he let his hands drop from their position and lifted my chin with his other. “I’ll be here.”
I nodded feeling slightly comforted, I couldn’t really argue, what’s done was done. I made my decision and I knew what I wanted all I needed to do was get everyone to understand and if they couldn’t do that then I guess I was going to have to move on.
“I know,” the corners of my mouth lifted upwards slightly. “But right now you can’t be.”
He gave me a confused look as I grabbed his hand and moved back to where we had fallen asleep. I threw him his t-shirt and he kept quiet as I looked for his shoes. “Where am I going?” he finally asked as I handed him his sneakers.
“Travis is going to be home soon,” I could see his jaw twitch faintly. “I want to talk to him by myself.”
He didn’t say anything, even his facial expression didn’t change but silently he slipped on his shoes and nodded his head. My lips pressed into a thin line as he headed towards the door. I grasped his wrist that held the door open and his head pivoted. I stepped up on my toes and my mouth folded over his for a brief kiss which in return got him to smile.
“Call me.” He said before slipping out the door.
“Babe?” the cheery familiar voice filled the house and I inwardly cringed. I turned in my seat as his face popped into the kitchen with a broad smile. “I should have known you’d be in here.”
I tried to laugh but it sounded strained. He came behind me and planted a kiss on my cheek and I dug my teeth into my lower lip. Dropping the bag in his hands he took a seat in the chair beside me.
“We need to talk.” I announced before he could speak which caused him to raise his eyebrows in suspicion.
“I slept with Justin.” In all honestly I had a whole plan set out. I would make us some sort of meal, ease him into the ‘it’s not you, it’s me’ cliché, tell him I have feelings for someone else but at that moment I had no control of what came out of my mouth. He looked completely shocked but that vanished quickly as his facial expression turned angry. I’ve never seen him look at me the way he was doing now. I swallowed hard but kept my stare before saying, “I’m sorry.”
“You’re sorry?” he scoffed instantly standing and towering over me. “You’re not fucking sorry if you did it.” I guess that was true. I kept quiet as he continued. “You’re unbelievable, with who and how long?”
“It was last night and Justin.” Might as well rip the band aid off – how much worse could it get? I was in no rush to find out.
“Justin?” he repeated. “Are you fucking kidding me, Selena?” his harsh voice raised an octave. “Wasn’t he the one that broke your heart and the reason it took you forever to trust men again.”
That was also true – I really should have gone with my plan. I nodded quietly, tucking a strand of my hair behind my ear. I kept my head low and listened to his footsteps pacing back and forth. The silence was killing me and I wanted him to say something – anything.
“I didn’t think you’d go around acting like a whore.” Maybe not anything. My mouth dropped at his words. I never saw this kind of side of him. He pounded his fist against the nearby lamp making me jump. My heart beat started to race and I shook back in forth in my seat. I didn’t know how he’d react when I told him but I guess I should have thought it out more.
“I just didn’t know,” I finally spoke up, my voice sounded shaky and I wished more than anything I didn’t show how scared I felt. “I wasn’t expecting to still have feelings for him.”
“How could you?” his voice was a bit softer and I could hear the hurt in his voice and unexpectedly I remembered my own voice years ago repeating the same words to Justin. I closed my eyes and laced my hands together. His footsteps stopped and the floor screeched as he pulled the chair out and took a seat. I could sense his piercing stare on me but I didn’t budge. That was until he reached his arm out to touch my hand lying on the table. “I thought you loved me.”
I couldn’t help the tears that fell from my eyes, I barley even noticed at first. “I did – I do.” I whispered as he pulled his hand away and shook his head. “I let him get the better of me.”
“So,” he paused, “what is that supposed to mean?”
I bit my lip. “I don’t really know.”
“Was it a onetime thing?” he asked, he went back to intense staring. I could feel the heat rise to my cheeks. There was another long silent pause before I shrugged my shoulders. He exhaled once again. “It’s a yes or no answer, Selena. Are you really going to get back with him?”
“I didn’t want to hurt you,” I told him honestly. “I think we should call of the wedding.”
He was quiet as he picked himself up from his seat and grabbed his bag from the floor. “Just don’t come crawling back to me,” he sneered. “You know damn well he’ll break your heart again.”
My eyes burned as the tears kept falling. What have I done? I watched as he shook his head – as if he was ashamed and walked out the door, slamming it behind him.
I woke up the next day to six missed calls from Justin. I ignored his calls all day yesterday and even when he came to the door and knocked repeatedly begging for entrance. I only replied with ‘go away’ or ‘I’m fine’. He finally did get the point and left but that didn’t stop his messages telling me he was sorry, he shouldn’t have left. I wanted to forget about the last two days – how everything suddenly was messed up.
I talked to my mom because I knew she’d help me. She told me that I should have broken it off from the beginning if I was feeling this way about Justin and thinking about it, I guess I should have. There was a lot of things, I should have done. I called everyone telling them the wedding was cancelled – a lot of questions were asked but being in the business so I long my excuses and dodging them became easy for me.
As expected in about a week the news had a field day – headlines about my meant to be soon wedding were all over the internet. Everyone had their own statement that came from a “source” close to mine. It always made me laugh when I saw that – I’ve had quite the sources but now nothing was amusing. I was hurting when I shouldn’t be. I put myself in this mess and I was the only one to take myself out of it
I grabbed my phone and dialed Justin’s number.
“Hello?” he answered.
“Tell me right now,” I demanded. “Are we going to be forever or did I just fuck up my whole life for one night?”
I knew he had to be surprised by my tone and question. I’ve been ignoring him for the whole week and suddenly I was calling and yelling.
“Of course I want this to be forever, Selena.” He spoke softly. “Where are you? Are you home?”
“I want this to be different,” I could hear him beginning to speak but I continued. “I know you’ve promised to make it different in the past but I’m serious – I want to know that I don’t have to worry about any of the shit I did before.”
“We’ll be okay.”
I sighed before replying with, “and for some reason I don’t believe you.” I hung up before he could say anything. My stomach formed knots as I dialed another number.
“Travis,” I breathed. “Can we talk?”
I have a few ideas for the way this story would go because I honestly don’t want the whole predictable endings that I usually do but then again I might. I guess I’m just going to have to continue writing and figure it out as I go and also I’d love to hear your opinions!! I’m sorry if there are spelling mistakes or something because I just wrote and posted it. Thank you again for all your wonderful feedback, it’s greatly appreciated :)